this is gonna be boring, trust me.

Im going to treat my blog  better this time cause Im finally going to write an official post.

I’ve been quite busy with life and had always blog just because I wanted to, I feel like they bring no meaning as in I just blog  without using my brain sometimes.

Since now Im having some HAPPY HOLIDAYS, I would blog -seriously-  ! :P

Aite aite cut the crap

I know Christmas is around the corner,  everyone’s been shouting about it on twitter and fb. Y’know but to me, I’m gonna shout “ITS GOING TO BE THE END OF THE WORLD” Nahh just kidding, “END OF 2011!!” I mean.

I’m going to say 2011 is a special year for me, though all of the years I’ve enjoyed, but 2011 is still special.

It’s the year I’ve been kind of struggling through.

I got to make decisions by myself, all by myself

I got to know directions and make sure people don’t get me lost somewhere.

I got to be brave enough to travel around alone, to walk alone.

I got to cope with stuffs that I sometimes don’t know what the hell is it, but still I did. J

I got to feel that the warmth a family brings is fantastic, its better than my first kiss. Yes for sure!

I had trusted God more than ever.

I got to face people with different personalities, some even strange enough to keep me swirling.

I got many surprises in life to actually understand the way life goes.

I  can open up my heart to accept different things now.

I got the chance to be an event photographer though im not even an amateur, I appreciate every single chances.

I was given the chance to fulfill my dream – charity work. That’s always my dream. (Okay I know Im not an angel but I enjoy doing it :D )

I stood on the stage to present in front of massive crowd, inside me I was shivering.

I saw many pretty faces, really pretty ones.

And yes, it was yesterday, I had finally done reading “whats your number?”.

You know how this book came around? I was so heart-broken to not be able to watch the movie and so I rushed to MPH, grabbed the book and rushed back home happily. Pathetic enough?!

I didn’t know why this title attracted me. I didn’t know why I bought it. It was just meant to be. So yea I didn’t regret a single cent after reading it. It is just that meaningful I tell you, with so many inspiring and simple quotes. I larve it I couldn’t say much. And it says what a female thinks. I love how it actually speaks my mind my goodness.

Let me kind of summarize it :

There’s this girl had sex with about 20 guys in her list, not all at a time. And she thinks that its time to stop and search for the love of her life.

So she went from 1-20 in her list, one by one to get back to the guys and see if anyone of them will be her true love.

She asked her neighbor who is a private investigator to get the info of those guys for her, and he agreed.

For your info : most of the guys are hot like madddd I mean like mad.

In the end she hooked up with her neighbor.

This book really changed some of my thoughts.

Y know Im those who always surrender all to God, I mean even my love life.

I mean if he is mine, he will come. That’s me. I don’t search, I don’t whatever, just wait, like an idiot.

And Im realistic at times, I tend to like hot guys more than those who’re actually pretty inside them. See? I know you feel like killing me now.

And after reading this book, I realized that I got to change. I’ve always know that this is a bad habit to judge a book by its cover, but I couldn’t resist at times. I bet its normal for everyone. Who would choose a table lamp than a chandelier right? But Im still not right I know. Who am I to judge, right?

All in all, this year was terrific.

Nothing different like the others, I’m still excited for Christmas!

XOXO, ash.