YEYYO. :)

Yes, all I want is a perfect ending.
I guess that's what everyone is hoping for.
I want it to end with joy, but I know I'm definitely going to shed tears.
Typical me, emotional as always.

If you're wondering what's going to end, its actually my 1 and a half year of A-Levels.
I know right, you would be thinking 'NAHHH no big deal', but you're so wrong cause all way through,
those experiences were like priceless, and they will be, as well in future.
No doubts, I've learned a lot, in differents aspects.
Academic wise I don't think I need to tell you about it, as usual.
It's actually about people, and the way I change my attitude towards things, my actions.
Learning to be more patient. That's something crucial enough.
:)

Mmmm last paper left before A-Levels ends.
Shall blog after Triple A & our bunch trip to SG then.
Toodles.

All's well, ends well.
XX

this is gonna be boring, trust me.

Im going to treat my blog  better this time cause Im finally going to write an official post.

I’ve been quite busy with life and had always blog just because I wanted to, I feel like they bring no meaning as in I just blog  without using my brain sometimes.

Since now Im having some HAPPY HOLIDAYS, I would blog -seriously-  ! :P

Aite aite cut the crap

I know Christmas is around the corner,  everyone’s been shouting about it on twitter and fb. Y’know but to me, I’m gonna shout “ITS GOING TO BE THE END OF THE WORLD” Nahh just kidding, “END OF 2011!!” I mean.

I’m going to say 2011 is a special year for me, though all of the years I’ve enjoyed, but 2011 is still special.

It’s the year I’ve been kind of struggling through.

I got to make decisions by myself, all by myself

I got to know directions and make sure people don’t get me lost somewhere.

I got to be brave enough to travel around alone, to walk alone.

I got to cope with stuffs that I sometimes don’t know what the hell is it, but still I did. J

I got to feel that the warmth a family brings is fantastic, its better than my first kiss. Yes for sure!

I had trusted God more than ever.

I got to face people with different personalities, some even strange enough to keep me swirling.

I got many surprises in life to actually understand the way life goes.

I  can open up my heart to accept different things now.

I got the chance to be an event photographer though im not even an amateur, I appreciate every single chances.

I was given the chance to fulfill my dream – charity work. That’s always my dream. (Okay I know Im not an angel but I enjoy doing it :D )

I stood on the stage to present in front of massive crowd, inside me I was shivering.

I saw many pretty faces, really pretty ones.

And yes, it was yesterday, I had finally done reading “whats your number?”.

You know how this book came around? I was so heart-broken to not be able to watch the movie and so I rushed to MPH, grabbed the book and rushed back home happily. Pathetic enough?!

I didn’t know why this title attracted me. I didn’t know why I bought it. It was just meant to be. So yea I didn’t regret a single cent after reading it. It is just that meaningful I tell you, with so many inspiring and simple quotes. I larve it I couldn’t say much. And it says what a female thinks. I love how it actually speaks my mind my goodness.

Let me kind of summarize it :

There’s this girl had sex with about 20 guys in her list, not all at a time. And she thinks that its time to stop and search for the love of her life.

So she went from 1-20 in her list, one by one to get back to the guys and see if anyone of them will be her true love.

She asked her neighbor who is a private investigator to get the info of those guys for her, and he agreed.

For your info : most of the guys are hot like madddd I mean like mad.

In the end she hooked up with her neighbor.

This book really changed some of my thoughts.

Y know Im those who always surrender all to God, I mean even my love life.

I mean if he is mine, he will come. That’s me. I don’t search, I don’t whatever, just wait, like an idiot.

And Im realistic at times, I tend to like hot guys more than those who’re actually pretty inside them. See? I know you feel like killing me now.

And after reading this book, I realized that I got to change. I’ve always know that this is a bad habit to judge a book by its cover, but I couldn’t resist at times. I bet its normal for everyone. Who would choose a table lamp than a chandelier right? But Im still not right I know. Who am I to judge, right?

All in all, this year was terrific.

Nothing different like the others, I’m still excited for Christmas!

XOXO, ash.

well today was my last paper for AS Level, so I went to chill.
for the first time, I went for a manicure & padicure session, and some spa & massage.
I used to paint my own nails and massage by myself, feeling that its not worth it to pay for something I can do on my on. Groupon totally made me went out of my boundaries, it was dirt cheap so I gave it a shot.
*guiltiness struck for using my parents' money on my own enjoyment, again*
Though it was so,
I felt totally awesome today, being served by people for the first time feels really great isn't it.
=D

learning how to spend more time on myself.
than to keep doing what I need to do.
this holidays will be fully packed, I will make slots for my family as well.
This packed schedule makes me feel so suffocated *acting like a busy person*
yet it will be fun, Im sure.
Malacca with the peeps, Balakong for charity work, Orphanage at Klang, Bak Kut Teh & Fried Laksa, Sepang Gold Coast, Museum & Singapore for Christmas if possible.
Getting prepared for charity work this coming weekend, I have no idea where this excitement came from,
it will be a great experience for all of us

XOXO

:D

Im waiting for next wednesday. ;)
please come to me.
thats the time when I finish my last paper.
heeeeheeee I mean at least for the timing.
cause I know whats coming up after my papers will be tougher.
Im always climbing hard, hoping to reach the peak somewhere, far I guess.

well let me kind of summarize what I did today.
today was actually a kind of miserably happy yet tiring day.
after our bio paper 2 - "so called heavy paper" , we sat in "our so called Narnia" for awhile and later on walked to pyramid for lunch.
We did what we love the most --- be the first customer of the day at Sushi Zanmai.
you know girls could really go crazy when they're all grouped together, no joke. HAHA =)
went to redbox after that.
went home.
came out for Happy Feet 2.
went for supper.
went home.
came here blogging.

yea
so Im very lazy now.
I feel like sleeping
goodnight

if you're thinking how have I been recently ;

someone who was very confident lost her confidence ;

it was this day where my mum and I met my lecturers.

it was kind of parents-teachers-day.

Yea so,

I got some reviews from my lecturers.

1st review : She can do well in her subject. But one thing, Ashley is lack of confidence. 

She knows the way to answer but still she needs confidence in the exam hall. Dont be scared.

2nd review : She's fine. Definitely not a problem for her. Paper 1 she should work harder.

The rest, I think she's doing pretty well. She always finishes my homework.

3rd review : Ashley ahh. She always panic. In class, she can score an A, but comes to exam, she gets a B.

Panic during papers. She does consistent work, very sharp girl.

OK. words in bold are proves of me being lack of confidence.

I actually cried a little after hearing these reviews.

I mean,

I really did deteriorate. 

During that period of time, I was quite sad about this issue.

Since young, I was the proactive one, the one who is always alert.

But I started to lose confidence since secondary level.

I thought to myself,

and I'm pretty sure its because I cared too much about my relationship,

I don't blame it, but its my own fault for not being able to balance up well.

Flipped some old photos,
I really put all my effort in it, was even shocked of what I did.
didnt remember them until I saw those photos. :D
 just hoping that it turn out well, but it didn't in the end.
yea so no worries.
Epic fail ashley.

Well,

till now, 

Im much confidence, I prayed hard.

and I tried myself out,

to see if I shiver or panic out during this Advanced Subsidiary Level exam.

Guess what, I was very calm.

I kept thinking until the last minute.

I really thank God for that.

6 more papers left.

what a long stretch, kind of  tiring sometimes.

but life goes on

I am the child mum and dad had never really been worried of.

They say what they wanna say, advice me in a good manner, like good friends.

I don't want to disappoint them and lose the role of being ''the-nothing-to-worry'' daughter.

for my education, it had already cost a bomb, should have chosen TarC from the start,

but God made me here in Sunway, He must have a reason I believe.

Stress is part of my life, it has to be there to get me through challenges, isn't it.

if life is always that fun and relaxed, you will never know where the climax is.

no stress = no fun.
 

yea
there is nothing which is impossible
in a few years time, I will be having my career.
I need to earn and pay back to my parents, not necessarily financially ; HAHA

an old photo for memories :D
kind of missing those times seriously.

good day everyone, :D

#dumb

have you ever felt the urge to know someone's life?
Its happening on me.
I guess its just my busybody-ness or some damn curiosity
no idea why but I just feel like knowing how had my friend been now.
maybe my friend is totally not interested in my life, but, yea you know.

I really need some space to concentrate.
100% of my brain, 60% had been used up by this curiosity
HAHAHA u must be thinking whathell am i doing
Yea, even I myself feel dumb.
No worries.

I'm 18 and I'm still a teen.
sometimes I have to indulge in my own feelings and not stopping them from controlling me.
when Im satisfied, I will control them back again.

#InTime

watched In Time today *Justin Timberlake & Amanda Seyfield*
well not really exciting but its just not that bad, it was OK.
and it really proved that JT should improve in his acting skills *so sorry JT fans out there, no offense* ME LOVE JT TOO! :D

despite this, I actually felt what the director was trying to reflect
Perhaps everyone has a different conclusion for movies,
but personally I feel that..
Its about citizens struggling to buy time = struggling for a living.
if u're rich, u can afford to buy more time and live longer,
if u're not, u know what happens when time ends.
Yea so, its about the society.
At first when I watched it, I thought it was pointless and quite funny at some scenes.

Then I thought of it again after the movie. haha U know Im a little slow in thinking.
and yeah,
There's one more part which showed the corruption of the Time Keeper (an officer who is always watching  the time zones, preventing people from having too much time)
basically the Time Keeper = Police officers.
They bully and take time from innocent citizens out there, it showed obvious corruption of the people who has more power, and misuse their power.

and in the end, as usual , the hero saves the world from the "time crisis"
wanna know more? get ur tickets before they're all sold out.
=D I didnt mean to be a spoiler of those who hadnt watched In Time.







Good night 2.00am.
didn't know why Im having sleepless nights these days,
and my neck is always feeling very tight and stiff.
wondering if its stress :)

Life in college had been 6 months +.
I've learnt to be more independent this is for sure
and to improve myself in skills which I don't have.
It's actually a good year for me I bet. Cuz pre-U is basically one year or two to know and find yourself.
So I'm in the process.
I find it important to set your priorities, I mean what do u really need in your future.
For now I wanna finish my studies as soon as possible. I know it will be a long way to go, planning to do medic, would be a pretty tough course to take, but I'll try it out no matter what.
:D
Next would be spending more quality time with my family & God, and my friends.
hmmm besides these, I would let things go on naturally and let fate decide.



A kinda wordy post, I better stop talking to bore you out.
XOXO