someone who was very confident lost her confidence ;
it was this day where my mum and I met my lecturers.
it was kind of parents-teachers-day.
Yea so,
I got some reviews from my lecturers.
1st review : She can do well in her subject. But one thing, Ashley is lack of confidence.
She knows the way to answer but still she needs confidence in the exam hall. Dont be scared.
2nd review : She's fine. Definitely not a problem for her. Paper 1 she should work harder.
The rest, I think she's doing pretty well. She always finishes my homework.
3rd review : Ashley ahh. She always panic. In class, she can score an A, but comes to exam, she gets a B.
Panic during papers. She does consistent work, very sharp girl.
OK. words in bold are proves of me being lack of confidence.
I actually cried a little after hearing these reviews.
I mean,
I really did deteriorate.
During that period of time, I was quite sad about this issue.
Since young, I was the proactive one, the one who is always alert.
But I started to lose confidence since secondary level.
I thought to myself,
and I'm pretty sure its because I cared too much about my relationship,
I don't blame it, but its my own fault for not being able to balance up well.
Flipped some old photos,
I really put all my effort in it, was even shocked of what I did.
didnt remember them until I saw those photos. :D
just hoping that it turn out well, but it didn't in the end.
yea so no worries.
Epic fail ashley.
Well,
till now,
Im much confidence, I prayed hard.
and I tried myself out,
to see if I shiver or panic out during this Advanced Subsidiary Level exam.
Guess what, I was very calm.
I kept thinking until the last minute.
I really thank God for that.
6 more papers left.
what a long stretch, kind of tiring sometimes.
but life goes on
I am the child mum and dad had never really been worried of.
They say what they wanna say, advice me in a good manner, like good friends.
I don't want to disappoint them and lose the role of being ''the-nothing-to-worry'' daughter.
for my education, it had already cost a bomb, should have chosen TarC from the start,
but God made me here in Sunway, He must have a reason I believe.
Stress is part of my life, it has to be there to get me through challenges, isn't it.
if life is always that fun and relaxed, you will never know where the climax is.
no stress = no fun.
yea
there is nothing which is impossible
in a few years time, I will be having my career.
I need to earn and pay back to my parents, not necessarily financially ; HAHA
an old photo for memories :D
kind of missing those times seriously.
good day everyone, :D
